Lena’s Journey

It’s another Saturday morning and here I sit wondering what I’ll have for breakfast.  I’m thinking a banana and some toast and coffee.  I haven’t blogged much this week at all.   Work has kept me incredibly busy - I go to the office during the day, then come home and work until I pass out from exhaustion.  I have big projects going on right now, but I hope to have them finished by this coming Wednesday.   I love my job!

I have done very well this week with eating healthy.   I’m pms’ing, so it’s been a small struggle not to binge, but not as bad as I’ve experienced in the past.  I’ve been practicing self-talk.  When I run to the fridge for something to eat or snack on, I’ve been making myself stop and ask “am I hungry or is there another reason I’m doing this?”  If my answer is “just because”, I walk away from it and then the urge passes in about 10 mins.  I have habits with my food addition… I guess that’s normal?  And it’s hard to break a habit.  But I’m slowly but surely working on it. 

I’m having a lot of internal diaglogues with myself and they seem to be helping.  I also talk to my dogs.  (LOL!)  They ‘re always good listeners.  Well, except Tigger.  She’d prefer I eat all the time so she could have a bite.  Little glutton.  And she’s skinny.  She’s like one of those women who can eat anything they want and as much as they want and never exercise and never gain a pound.  Of course, Tigger is a very high energy dog.  She burns calories by just blinking her eyes.  Corey, my corgi mix, could care less.  I’m using him as my mentor… giggle.  He could care less about the food that’s around.  I could be eating a steak and he’d be like, “Yeah?  So?”  and then go lay back down.  (All the while, Tigger is drooling on my foot).

Speaking of Corey… he’s afraid of my digital scale.  When I go to weigh, he tucks his tail, gets that frightened look in his eye, and goes to hide.  I think it’s the “beep” that he doesn’t like.  I tried to introduce him to the scale the other day and told him that it REALLY is our friend, but he’s not buying it.  (He’s also afraid of the remote control, the camera and my cell phone… apparently an aversion to electronics…?)

So anyway… I’m hoping to have a very productive weekend.  Cleaning, laundry, some furniture rearranging, lots of water and lots of things to keep my attention away from food.  I have a good attitude right now and I hope it stays that way!